What do you write about at two in the morning? Haha. Wala lang. I'm online so I might as well blog about something, diba?

Medyo napapasayaw ako ngayon habang nakikinig sa LAUNCHcast. Haha. Grabe. Wala talagang masabi eh. Ang ganda ni Beyonce. Haha. Paano ba magiging Beyonce? Di naman ako magaling sumayaw. Trying hard kumanta. Haaay. Ang ganda ng kutis niya. Bronz-y. HAHAHAHAHA! Grrr.. Pagtatawanan ako ni Ming. Bwahahaha :)

May pupuntahan kami ng Mommy ko bukas. Sana makasama ko kina Dear sa Market, Market. Mamimili ata sila, malamang. I want to get out of my house. Haaay ulit. :D

I watched White Chicks on DVD this evening. It was friggin' hilarious. HAHAHA. Ang lakas lakas kong tumawa kanina. Kami nga lang di Tibs ang nanood eh. Mababaw siya pero masaya. Hehehe :) *If I could fall down to the sky, do you think time will pass me by? 'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you.* --- Sana tama lyrics. :D

Ninakaw ko sa planner ni Ming. Nyak. :D

It is right to be contented with what we have, never with what we are.
- James Mackintosh

Why? Because we have to understand that our identity is forever changed, shaped, and created. It is not something that we discover. We make our identity. If we are contented with who we are, we deny ourselves the opportunity to grow and to fully realize our potentials. Hah. Labo.

Kailangan ko na atang matulog. Nasobrahan na ko. Hehehe :)

Ha! Two posts for today. Anyhow, I went to SM Fairview to meet my former busmates. :) Gawd, I miss them. It was great seeing all of them. Ang tagal na. Dapat ata mag bus ako ulit. Nyahaha. *Hi to Keavy, Vany, Milay, Rina, Dominique, Patrod, Loreen, and Maricris!* Mamimiss kita Maricris. Ingat ka lagi sa States. Haaay... At wag mang boys agad. :) Hehehe.

Maricris and Patrod

Vany and Andoi

Hmm.. I found this interesting article in peyups.com. I wish I possessed the same gift of words as the author. Kaso nga lang sadyang pinanganak akong di magaling sumulat. :) Hay. :p

Three Words by caravaggio
The three words that mean the most aren’t I love you, with its history of being an accomplice to lies, with its bad reputation as a myth. What is I love you but the easy way out, the secret weapon revealed at the ends of long-drawn battles between desperation and despair? I love you is what you say when you run out of valid arguments but decide to keep fighting anyway. I love you is what you use when you want to appear to be someone you’re not. These are powerful words, powerful in the way that politicians and generals are nowadays, worth their weight in gold. I love you has been the pillar of empires and friendships, and their causes for downfall. I love you is where you build the tower of your trust, only to see it crumble down when these words are said to someone else (Naranasan ko toh. Grrr...). I love you is what you use when you want to be unfair, when you want to deliberately hurt. I love you throws the whole equation in chaos, unbalances the seesaw. It implies the loss of reason and pride, but is used to manipulate, to blackmail, leaving behind disillusionment and disappointment.

The three words that mean the most aren’t I want you, with its raw, blatant inconsideration, its implications of a primal need that is best released orgasmically. I want you is what spoiled brats say, it’s what selfish bitches say, it’s what horny boys say. I want you is harsh, said through clenched teeth, said with wild eyes. I want you is a physical sentence, the amalgamation of skin against a number of factors: skin on skin, fingernail on skin, teeth on skin. It is violent and rapid, a whirlwind of emotion, an explosion of saliva and other bodily fluids. These are words that have no origin, they emerge from the basest of instincts, they are triggered by smell, by touch, by the look of rawness in another person’s eyes. These are words that signal the coming of a storm, and like most storms, they wreak havoc and then depart, leaving behind ruin and wounds.

The three words that mean the most aren’t I need you, with its childish, clingy implications, its sad, pathetic grievances. I need you leaves you open, blinding you to yourself, eradicating all traces of self-respect. I need you is the dying breath of a failed relationship. It is the battlecry of an overpowered suitor. These words signal the clinging to memories that are either long gone, or never were. These words bypass true necessity to make fools out of the sayers. These are not words to be used by all; it takes the strongest persons to relay this message correctly. Otherwise all is naught, you only reveal yourself as an empty shell craving for something, anything, to fill it. But then, the strongest persons never have the need to say these words. It’s the irony of life. These words are like taking a knife to your throat and piercing your skin gently, leaving behind a trail of blood too thin for anyone to see, but painful enough for you to feel.

The three words that mean the most, I think, the ones that really hit the mark, and often in the most unexpected of ways, are I miss you .This is the sentence that sends the message right home. Because what other message is there? Nothing else, except exactly just that, I miss you, and everything else is pulled along into it, like a chain reaction. Unlike I love youand the lies that go along with it, I miss you is honest and sincere, you only say it when you mean it, and you don’t have to mean it in a big way to really mean it. Unlike I want you and its expectations, I miss you offers all it has, and waits for nothing in return. Unlike I need you and its desperate whines, I miss you stands on its own, a whole entity in just three words, devoid of arms that cling to you for life.

I miss you means everything and nothing, it is unflinching and honest. It is upbeat and simple, with wisps of longing and clouds of hope. You miss people you used to love, people you used to want, people you used to need. But most of the time the missing is all that’s left, and that’s OK, there’s nothing else you’d change. The missing implies a past that remains in its rightful place. Or it implies the reality and possibilities of the present. It is hope and love and lust and peace all at the same time. Some people say that when they met that person, it was akin to coming home. And missing is this manifestation of home-sickness, the way people return to their homelands to die, the way all the comfort the world has to offer is nothing compared to the feeling of being in someone’s arms.

And that’s why I miss you, because you’re not here, and because every time I think about you, that’s all that I think. I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, and the world turns for both of us, and I can’t wait until you come home.

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When you say that you miss me, do you really mean it?

Nanalo ang Red Sox sa World Series. Yun lang. :)

Losing light fast, there’s just enough to let you know that I still try. Cause it’s so hard when you’re the only star that shines in my sky. It’s so hard when you’re the only reason I try - I also found this in peyups.com.
Losing Light Fast - Peter Searcy

I miss the SG. Heehee. :p

I went to Migs' debut last night. Ang ganda ni Migs. :) Sayang wala kong pic. Anyhow, it was great to see my other high school classmates (and their boyfriends. Heehee.). :) La lang. Ang ayos ng debut ni Migs. Sana ako rin. Haha. Pero major crammer naman kasi ako kaya tignan natin. :p

Anyhow, when I was about to take a bath last night, I accidentally slipped in the shower. To make matters worse, I friggin' bumped my head. Grabe talaga. Malas. Buti na lang nakatayo ako agad at medyo nasa sarili ko na ulit ako. After taking a bath, I watched The Practice on Star World. Season finale na niya kaya sayang... Haaay. Bobby's leaving the firm. Apektadong apektado eh. Iba na kasi pag wala siya. Hehehehe :D

I'm on my way to my former busmate's despidida. She's about to go to the States this November. *I'll miss you...* Why is everyone leaving the Philippines? *sigh*

Dahil pinapaupload mo... :)

Tania and Debra at Migs' debut

Taken after Migs' debut :) Haha. Ang self-absorbed ko. Hehehe.

Haha. Wala lang. I'm home and doing nothing. :p Actually, my dad's here because he's bringing me to Migs' debut at the Mandarin Oriental. Buti na lang di siya pumasok kasi kung hindi, hindi ako makakapunta. Anyhow, belated Happy Birthday to Pam and Happy Birthday to Virmarie! Heehee. :)

My autistic pictures. Bwahahaha.

Taken on 10.25.04

With Ming. Hahaha :)

Wala lang. My hair does feel like a broom. Pero di siya matigas. Ang labo. Wala kong magawa at maisip na matino. Hehehehe :d

Everybody loves a hero. People line up for them, cheer them, scream their names, and years later, how they stood for hours in the cold rain just to catch a glimpse of the one who told them to hold on a second longer. I believe there's a hero in all of us who keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble, and finally allows us to die with pride; even though sometimes we have to be steady, and give up the thing we want the most; even our dreams.
-- Spiderman 2

I watched the Eternal Sunshine of Spotless Mindtoday. It was dark, unconventional, thought-provoking (It was quite confusing to be honest.), and utterly moving. Hehehe. :) In a sense, it was your 'unexpected' kilig movie. If I were in Kate Winslet's or Jim Carrey's position, I wouldn't want to have all those memories erased. I want to remember the nice and passionate moments because I would want to think that even for a short period of time, someone actually loved me and put up with all my craziness and imperfections. And I would rather keep the not-so-good memories although it's heartbreaking to remember those and it would be much easier to forget all about them. Parang bahagi na sila ng pagkatao mo. Di mo na maikakailang nangyari yung mga yun. Wala lang. :D Hahaha.

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
– Alexander Pope

I've been getting a lot of rejections lately. Crap talaga. Pati CRS nirereject ako. Ha. Di ko pa rin nakuha yung Bio 11. Grrrr... Malas! I'm five units short. Haaay...

My schedule for the second semester (Kulang pa toh!)

Mondays and Thursdays
700-800 AM Self-Defense for Women (Di na nadala!)
830-945 AM Math 53 (Elementary Analysis I)
1000-1130 AM Chem 26 (Analytical Chemistry Lec)
100-400 PM Chem 26.1 (Analytical Chemistry Lab)

Tuesdays and Fridays
830-945 AM Math 53 (Elementary Analysis I)
1000-1130 AM Art Studies 2

Sana makuha ko yung Bio. Di ako marunong mag manual registration. ACK. Malas talaga. Pero wala akong klase pag Wednesday at wala na akong three-hour breaks. Haaay. :p

HAHA! Seriously, how do lose weight fast? Bwahaha. :) I will have to work out soon. Really. Need to sweat it all off because I feel fat. Haha. Anyhow, my boring days are over. My mom keeps on telling me to prepare stuff for my debut. Grabe. Nakakatamad na nakakaparanoid. Grrr...

You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly
everything and is constantly wondering about
what could have been.You're not happy with your
situation and usually blame yourself because of
the bad things that have happened.Cheer up.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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Was blog-hopping and I found this quote on her blog..

Why do I climb mountains?
Because it stands there.
Smiling.
Alluring.
Taunting.
Provoking.
...Making the difference between what I am and what I can be.
Why Do I Climb Mountains, Melba L. Fernandez-Aslanbaigi

Gusto kong umalis ng bahay. Haaay...

I got two of my six class cards today. Tas yung nakuha ko pa yung alam ko ng grade ko. Hehehe :) I'll have to get the others during registration. Nakakainis nga eh. Sayang pagpunta ko... Pero ok lang din kasi nakaalis na ako at last sa bahay! Bwahahaha :) Sana next week ulit makalabas ako. Haaaay... :)

I'm going to start reading After Eden tonight. I hope I like it. I think I'll like it. Ang mushy/cheesy ko pa naman din. Malamang magugustuhan ko yun. :)

And, Migs' debut is coming up. Have nothing to wear yet. Haven't bought her a gift as well... Sana bilhan ako ng Mommy ko ng damit pero baka hindi. Ok lang din. :) Speaking of dresses, I got to see/fit my gown last Wednesday. Ang sikip niya. HAHA! Hindi naman masikip. Sobrang fit lang. :) Kailangang magpapayat. Kailangang mag-exercise. :p Bwahaha :D

LSS of the Moment: My Boo - Usher and Alicia Keys [Usher intro:] There's always that one person That will always have your heart You'll never see it coming Cause you're blinded from the start Know that you're that one for me It's clear for everyone to see Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo [Alicia intro:] I don't know bout ya'll But I know about us and uh This is the only way We know how to rock I don't know bout ya'll But I know about us and uh This is the only way We know how to rock [Usher Verse:] Do you remember girl I was the one who gave you your first kiss Cause I remember girl I was the one who said put your lips like this Even before all the fame and People screaming your name Girl I was there when you were my baby [Chorus:] [Usher:] It started when we were young girl You were mine my boo Now another brother's taking over But its still in your eyes my boo Even though we used to argue it's alright I know we haven't seen each other in awhile But you will always be my boo [Alicia:] I was in love with you when we were younger You were mine my boo And I see you from time to time I still feel like my boo And I can see it no matter How I try to hide my boo Even though there's another man who's in my life You will always be my boo [Alicia Verse:] It's like remember boy Cause after we kissed I could only think about your lips Yes I remember boy The moment I knew You were the one I could spend my life with Even before all the fame And people screaming your name I was there and you were my baby [Chorus:] [Usher:] It started when we were young girl You were mine my boo Now another brother's taking over But its still in your eyes my boo Even though we used to argue it's alright I know we haven't seen each other In awhile but you will always be my boo [Alicia:] I was in love with you when we were younger You were mine my boo And I see it from time to time I still feel like my boo And I can see it no matter How I try to hide my boo Even though there's another man in my life You will always be my boo [Usher:] My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo [Alicia:] My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo [Chorus:] [Usher:] It started when we were young girl You were mine my boo Now another brother's taking over But its still in your eyes my boo Even though we used to argue it's alright I know we haven't seen each other In awhile but you will always be my boo [Alicia & Usher:] I don't know bout ya'll But I know about us and uh This is the only way We know how to rock I don't know bout ya'll But I know about us and uh This is the only way We know how to rock Hmm... Totoo kaya 'to? And if you remember and cherish all these moments with your boo, do you actually end up with that person despite the fact that you don't 'see' each other anymore? La lang. Wala akong boo. Hehehe. :) I watched Kung Ako na Lang Sana on CinemaOne this afternoon. (Baduy. Hehehe. I must be soooo bored.) I think it's quite nice. But the thought of being in love with your best friend and not having the guts to admit it to yourself and to that person is tragic. Ha. And heartbreaking. I hope I won't end up in a situation like that. :) Sa tingin ko naman hindi kasi ang kapal ko at masyadong 'open'. Not to mention GOF. Hehehe. :p Also, I don't want to feel lonely when I'm 40 or 30. I don't want to feel lonely when I'm 18. Parang minsan kailangan mong isantabi yung mga pangarap at trabaho mo nang panandalian para bigyan yung sarili mo ng pagkakataong lumigaya. (Eto na naman yung mga 'cheesy', soap opera lines ko. HAHA!) Baked cookies today. Yum.. And the Yankees lost to the Red Sox. Game 6 tomorrow at Brooklyn. Hope the Yankees win. :p Mellow sent me a message about a class gimik. Movies on Friday afternoon. Sana payagan. Sana makuha ko na class cards ko. :) Excited! Bwahahaha.

Happy Birthday Tibs! Haha :) Wala lang. Magpakabait ka na Tibs! Hahaha. :) *Also, a Happy birthday to Kelly! You're old na! Bwahahaha! :P*
***Note: It's also Eminem's birthday today. Wala lang ulit. :) Ipopost to siguro ni Ming. Nyaha.

Went to Tagaytay with my family. I think we just ate all day. Ha! I'm so full. I want to sleep. I have nothing to do. Crap. I want to go to school. I probably should read/study in advance to make good use of my sembreak. HAHAHA. *bangag.*

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This one's from Aika's blog. :)

1.ANO STUDENT NUMBER MO?
2004-13798

2. PANO KA NAKAPASOK SA UP?
Kumuha ko ng UPCAT noong nakaraang taon (08.02.03, 6 AM, College of Home Economics) at pumasa ako. :)

3.PANO MO NALAMAN ANG UPCAT RESULT?
Ika-19 ng Pebrero. PE namin. Tinawagan ako ng pinsan ko sa silid aralan at sinabing pumasa ko. Nagsisigaw ako. HAHA! :) Pumunta kami ng mga kaklase ko sa UPD din at tinignan ang resulta ng UPCAT.

4.FIRST CHOICE CAMPUS MO BA ANG UPD?
Oo.

5.ALAM MO BA ANG UPG MO?
Hindi eh.

6.ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
MBB - Molecular Biology and Biotechnology. :)

7.SECOND CHOICE?
Psychology.

8.ANO COURSE MO NGAUN?:
MBB.

9.MAY PLANO KA MAGSHIFT:?
Wala. Noong una inisip kong mag shitft pero ngayon wala na akong balak. Kung kailangan ko lang magpalit ng kurso, dun ako magshift.

10.RURALITE KA BA?:
ndi. buong buhay ko ay namalagi ako sa qc. -- Ako din.

11.PHI SCI?:
Hindi. Di ako pumasa dun eh pero ayos lang. Proud knoller din ako. :) At ngayon puro taga Philippine Science ang mga kaklase ko.

12.UMATTEND KA BA NG MGA KUNG ANO-ANONG PROGRAMA NG FRESHMAN KA?
Oo naman. At saka freshie pa ko.

13.NAKAPAGDORM KA NA BA?
Hindi pa. Hindi ako magdodorm ever. Ata.

14.NAGKASINGKO KA NA BA?
Hindi pa kasi freshie pa ko? at sana hindi kailanman ako makasingko.

15. NAGKA-UNO (1.00) KA NA?:
Hindi pa. Kakatapos pa lang ng unang sem eh. Sana maka uno ako ngayong sem.. Sana. *Pag asa ko na lang si Sir Tim.. Hehehe.*

16.HIGHEST GRADE MO?:
Sana uno. Sana ngayong sem may uno. Hehe.

17.LOWEST:

Ewan ko eh. Wala pa kasing bigayan ng grades.

18.WORST EXPERIENCE SA FORM 5:
Wala pa naman.

19.LAGI KA BANG NAGPEPREROG?:
Hindi kasi freshie pa nga ako. Never tried.

20.US, CS:
Sana...

21.MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
Wala eh. Iskolar ng bayan? :)

22.ILANG UNITS NA NAIPASA MO?
Ngayong sem. 18. Hopefully. :)

23.NANGANGARAP KA BA NA MAGLAUDE?
Oo naman. Sino bang hindi?

24.KELAN KA GAGRADUATE?:
Kung pagbubutihin, sa 2008.

25.FAVE TEACHER:
Sir Musngi aka Sirius Black. Haha. :) Gwapo ni sir. Ganda ng kamay. Hahahaha! :)

26.WORST TEACHER:
Wala.

27.FAVE SUBJECT/s
Math 17, Chem 16. -- Kahit mahirap sila. Haha. Nerd. :p

28.WORST SUBJECT
Comm. Di ko gusto masyado yung approach ng guro ko.

29.FAVE LANDMARK SA UPManila
Ewan ko. Di ko pa nalilibot ang Manila. Sa UPD, Oble? :)

30.BUILDING?
AH? AS? Haha. Ewan ko.

31.FAVE KAINAN
Katipunan. Hehehe.

32.ESTUDYANTE BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
Hindi.

33.LAGI KA BA SA MAIN LIBRARY:?
Hindi. Minsan lang. Mas masarap pumuntang CS. Malamig.

34.NAG-S.A. KA NA BA?
Anong SA?

35.ANO MASASABI MO KAY OBLE?
Magdamit ka naman? Hehe. :) Idol.

36.MAY ORG/S KA NA BA?
Wala pa.

37.FRAT/SORO?
Wala rin. Loser ako.

38.NAPANOOD MO NA BA ANG OBLATION RUN?
Hindi pa eh. Sa December manonood ako. Hahaha. :p

39.NAGPUNTA KA BA SA INFIRMARY NUNG MINSANG NAGKASAKIT KA?
Hindi. Nung nagpa medical lang ako.

40.MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?:
Meron. Haha. Kelangan. :)

41.BF/GF?:
Wala.

42.MAY BALAK KA BA MG-MS, PHD?
Meron. Pero di ko pa yan iniisip eh.. Matagal tagal pa yan.

43.ANU-ANO ANG MGA PE MO?
Taekwondo.

44.KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOC NYO?
Mababait ang mga blockmates ko. Kulang lang kami sa bonding.

45.BOMOTO KA NA BA PARA SA USC?
Hindi pa kasi freshie pa nga lang ako at kakatapos pa lang ng first sem.

46.MAY BALAK KA BANG MAGTRANSFER NG CAMPUS?
Wala. UPD pa rin.

47.MASAYA BA ANG FEB FAIR?:
Malay ko ba.

48.NAKAPANOOD KA NA BA NG GRADUATION?:
Yep. Nung grumaduate yung Tita ko. :)

49.MEMORIZE MO BA ANG UP NAMING MAHAL?
Hindi pa.

50.NAGSASUMMER KA BA?
Hindi pa pero kukuha ko ng klase ngayong summer. Nerd.

51.NAKAPERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
Oo. Hehe. Isa pa nga lang.

52.ANO AYAW MO SA HELL WEEK?
Yung sobrang daming kelangang gawin. Nakakabaliw.

I'm soooo bored. Someone save me from my boredom. Want to go back to school. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!! :)

Sembreak na. Wala lang. Haha. :p Nag-spar ako at nasipa sa ulo noong isang linggo. Grrr.. Yung 'kalaban' ko ay di ko kapareha. Talong talo ako. Hehehe. :)

Nanood ako ng Shark Tale kanina kasama si Ben, Cox, Theo, at Kuya Lem. Nakakatawa. Heehee. Lenny is the man/shark! *Hi! I'm Sebastian the whale-washing dolphin. :)* It was darn funny! And this was the first time that I got to go out with my friends with my parent's knowing. :p

Walang magawa sa bahay. I'm going to miss school. Haha. :) Pero di ako nagrereklamo na sembreak na. Grabe. Apat na linggo ang sembreak... Yey! :) Dati mga dalawang araw lang kaming walang pasok eh. Hahaha! :)

I don't know what to blog about. Going to get my grades soon. Sana mataas. I'm such a grade obsessed geek/nerd. Can't help it though. :)