I am feeling bitter as I have mentioned in my previous post so I asked my sister, Ming to change my layout... Ha. Magpakabitter na tayo! Haaay... Bakit ba ko bitter? Kasi pinili kong maging bitter kahit wala namang mabuting dahilan para magkaganito ako... Yung iba kasing tao may bago nang pinagkakainteresan. Kinalimutan na ko. Am I that forgettable? Tapos si Christian liligawan o nililigawan na si Rachelle Ann. Harakiri na ba toh? Heh. I am so friggin' jologs. Pasensya na... Dahil wala akong love life, inaaksaya ko na lang ang panahon ko sa pagpapantasya... Libre namang mangarap at naniniwala akong walang imposible. (Makikita niyo yan sa susunod kong layout. Haha.)

.... I've watched TV the whole day. I've been procrastinating and all that that's why I'm still up. I have to study for my chem quiz. Yan na ang storya ng buhay ko ngayon. Gising-pasok-aral-aral pa-aral pa rin-kain-tulog-nood TV-internet-aral pa-tulog. Haaay. Nakakapagod na toh. Everything's so routinary...

Am loving this song from Rivermaya.

Himala

Pangarap ko'y makita kang naglalaro sa buwan
Inalay mo sa akin ang gabing walang hanganan.

Hindi mahanap
'Di mahagilap sa lupa ang pag-asa
Nakikiusap na lang sa buwan...

Himala,
Kasalanan bang humingi ako sa langit ng...
Isang himala?
Kasalanan bang humingi ako sa langit ng...
Isang himala?

Pangarap ko'y makita ang liwanag ng umaga
Naglalambing sa iyong mga mata.

From this site

Quote for the day (and for the rest of our days...):

Happiness is a choice.
- Lucy Torres-Gomez

Another Filipino made it through the first set of auditions for American Idol. She's Sharon Galvez, a former member of Smokey Mountain. Mahusay noh? Iba talaga ang Pinoy! Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

So.. It's been a week since I last posted an update. I won't even try to tell everyone of what transpired these past few days. Ha. :) Basta dalawa na lang ang mga exam ko. Chem at Math midterms pa. Haaay... Please. Help me. It will be another difficult and trying week...

Anyhow, I watched TV the whole day yesterday. Watched two films, Warriors of Heaven and Earth and The Last Samurai. They're both period films... And there were lots of swordfights and bloody deaths. The first one was about this Japanese general, Sir Lai Xi who was assigned in the Tang court. Unless he put all the fugitives to justice, he couldn't go home to Japan. The last one on his list is Butcher Li. Sir Lai Xi was already on his trail and they fought but the general wasn't able to kill his enemy in three attacks. They then decided to meet at the capital instead because Butcher Li was going to bring certain Buddhist relics there. To cut the long story short, they became allies in protecting the relics because bandits and Turks were trying to steal them. In the end, they were able to bring the caravan to the capital and afterwards, the Golden Age of the Tang and China began. Haha. The film was ok. Not very spectacular but it was nice. Pwede na. :) The Last Samurai, on the other hand, was absolutely exquisite. I was so intrigued by the way of the Samurai. Haaay... We need people like that.. People who value honor, discipline, and compassion. I was so um.. attached to the story that I cried when the Last Samurai, Katsumoto died... Lessons learned: War will never be a rational solution to whatever conflicts we encounter. How could one kill his brother, his kababayan?... And despite all our attempts at improving and modernizing our countries, we must never forget those who have sacrificed their lives for our freedom... We must never forget our ways. We must never forget were we come from.
For 900 years, my ancestors have protected our people... and I failed them. (Something about dying in shame...)
Shame? Shame for a life of service? Discipline? Compassion?
.... The way of the Samurai is no longer necessary.
Necessary? Nothing could be more necessary..
Katsumoto and Algren's conversation before the attack

So... I have to sleep now. Um... I heard that Christian and Rachelle Ann are dating. (There's no courting going on... YET.) Grrr... Whatever. Crap. Drat. Erk. They look like they're siblings. Haay.. When will people see?.... *I am extremely bitter.*

I watched the Amazing Race last Wednesday. The people in Ethiopia, especially the children are so nice. Wala lang. Just remembered. :) We really should be more child-like these days. Iba talaga pag nakatingin ka sa mundo at sa buhay gamit ang mga mata ng isang bata. :) And Jonathan and Victoria got eliminated. :D

I cut my hair today. HAHA. Hmm.. Took my chem exam yesterday. It was ok at first but when I got to the problem solving part, I freaked out, panicked, and totally lost it. I knew how to solve the buffer problem but I wasn't able to do it correctly. Leche. I have at least 15 mistakes as of the moment. I have to exert extra effort for the next exam. Kelangang maka uno. :D

Hmmm... Yun lang naman ang bagong balita sa akin. I better start studying for Bio. It's going to be a loooong exam :p Kailangang bumawi. Kailangan talaga. Ang grade conscious ko pero ganun talaga. Di na maaalis sa sistema ko yun. :)

Before this afternoon

Ngayon? :) *So it's you, I've been waiting for so long. So it's you, where were you all along? Very special moments, these will always be with me. We are here. You and I, we belong... :) Heehee. I am so baduy! *

For the past few days, I [still] keep dreaming about plants and other chem stuff. Grabe. It's as if I can't stop thinking about wood, bark, secondary growth, and all that.. Help me please. Heehee. :)

I don't have a class today so I'm just here bumming around. Bwahaha. Before I ate lunch, I tried talking to our pet, Bruce, the talking bird. I was calling its name and then it replied, Anong pangalan mo? Ang husay! Hehehe. Kakatuwa. :)

Ho hum.. Watched the Amazing Race. A team's going to be eliminated.. Sino kaya? :) You won't get the answer here. *I don't want to spoil all the fun. Heehee.* Also, American Idol 4 is premiering today, 4 pm on Star World. I am friggin' excited. Weeheehee. :D

Yesterday, I was listening to the radio and there's this thing going on Congress. I think they were having a hearing on the legalization og hweteng (Is my spelling correct?) Anyhow, there was this CBCP rep and she said that they accept/ed donations from gambling lords. She even mentioned that she knew of once incident in which this gambling lord gave donations in order to assuage his conscience. And then a Congresswoman Magsaysay replied saying that if the Church accepts these kinds of donation then they are condoning gambling, which they deem as immoral. The CBCP rep argued that they are not in the position to judge anyone. They will not judge the gambling lords' intentions and personal motivations. If they want to give, then let them give... Hmm... I'm not sure about the details of this debate. Hehe. I was a bit sleepy while I was listening to it. :) Anyhow, I think that the Church should not accept these sums of money even though it may help a lot of less fortunate Filipinos. Pag tumatanggap sila, parang tumataliwas na sila sa kanilang mga pinaninidigan. Mahirap tumanggi, pero kailangan. Alam nating madaming matutulungan dahil sa pera pero higit sa lahat, kailangan nating maging tapat sa mga pangaral ng simbahan at ang isa sa mga ito ay ang sugal ay imoral.

On a lighter note, here's my schedule for the next two weeks:

January 22, Saturday - First Chem 26 Long Exam
January 25, Tuesday - Second Bio 11 (Lec) Long Exam
January 27, Thursday - Third Math 53 Long Exam
January 28, Friday - Second Bio 11 Lab Practical Exam; Second Art Stud 2 Quiz
February 2, Wednesday - Math 53 Midterm Examination
February 4, Saturday - Chem 26.1 Midterm Examination

So... I have seven exams coming up. Good luck na lang sa kin diba? :) I better start studying for my Chem exam this Saturday. Pray for me!!! :)

And I'm starting to enjoy my PE class even though my legs are killin' me right now. :) Heehee. :)

I've been having the sickest kind of dreams.. Haha. I've been dreaming of titrations. I overtitrated three solutions and my lab partner got pissed at me. Yuckie. Pati pa ba naman sa pagtulog ko... Haaay. Ano ba ito? Mga pahiwatig ng nerdness. Hehehe. Ick. :p

Hmm... Wala na kong masabi. went shopping this afternoon. Heehee. Bought two pairs of pants and a skirt and a blouse. Sale kasi... Pero malaking bawas din yun sa iniipon ko. :) Tomorrow is another school day. Haaay.. Havent's finished my rdr. Ack. Di ko maintindihan ang buffers. Grrr... Help me...

And Christian's singing the song for Dreamboy. Major LSS... Haha.. *So it's you I've been waiting for so long.. Hehehehe*

Haha. :) It's my mom's birthday, so... Happy birthday Mommy! :) Heehee. She had a party yesterday, and most of her friends came to our house. While they were drinking and eating away, I was singing my heart out together with my sister, Tibs as well as my cousins and some others. Grabe. Dalawang oras akong kumakanta ata. Haha. Pumipiyok naman. :) The song that got me a 94 was The Greatest Love of All by Whitney Houston. I was supposed to sing that song during my seventh birthday but I chickened out. Haha. I cried and I cried because I got so friggin' nervous. :D Haaay.. That was 11 years ago. Sayang naudlot ang aking debut. Haha :D

Anyhow, one of my chem campmates sent me this email message.

LET GO OF 2004
by T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you, let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go. And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over.

Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it.

Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to ..LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains...LET IT GO!!!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth...LET IT GO!!!
If someone has angered you ... LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge .. LET IT GO!!!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction .. LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents... LET IT GO!!!
If you have a bad attitude...LET IT GO!!!
If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better... LET IT GO!!!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him... LET IT GO!!!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....LET IT GO!!!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves...LET IT GO!!!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed .... LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to... LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things.
GOD is doing a new thing for 2005!!!
LET IT GO!!!
Get Right or Get Left .. think about it, and then LET IT GO!!!
"The Battle is the Lord's!"
LET GO AND LET GOD!

This would have been an excellent new year post but I only checked my hotmail today so there... Hehehe. I really don't believe in everything that the author said... Sometimes I would rather hold on. It's easier than letting go. But I think that above all, we have to trust in God because that's the only thing we can really do today... (And work towards whatever we want.. Ay ang labo. :p) Anyhow, Christian (close na kami. Haha. Feeling close.) mentioned (in www.christianbautistarocks.com. HAHAHA!!!)a verse from a Bible that inspires him. It's from Proverbs 3:5-6. It's a good read. :)

And I saw Christian on ASAP... Hmm... Rachelle Ann was holding on to his waist. What the...?!?!?!??? Grrr.... Nakakapanggigil... Hehehehe. Jologs ko. Haha. :)

I am friggin' fat (aka circumferencially privileged). I gained 6-10 pounds over the Christmas vacation. Tae talaga. Grabe. Kailangan ko ng mag exercise at mag diet. No more going to McDonalds' during lunch breaks for me. No more chocolates (as soon as I finish the ones Santa gave me for Christmas..) And I will have to cut down on my cookie intake. Haaay. Sacrifice. Ang taba ko. Nakakainis. Sumikip pa pantalon ko. Hehehe.

Anyhow, since school started I have only fell asleep once. Haha. That was during my Monday Math class. Grabe. :) I've been enjoying our study of derivatives. And the bio exam was um.. alright. It was so confusing though. Pano ba naman lima yung pagpipilian? Crap.. Hmm.. The rest of the week went just fine. Starting to enjoy bio lab. HAHAHAHAHA. :) And I got 'dizzy' during Self-Defense. We were tortured. Nyaha.

Other news
January 3 - Nanay's birthday; ate dinner at Eastwood
January 5 - Ben's 18th birthday *Happy birthday friend!!!*; Ninang's despidida (?)
January 6 - Ninang left for Canada...
January 7 - Watched part of Ocean's 12 with Ben; *Unexpectedly met someone. Haha.*
January 8 - Mommy's birthday party :); ACET results were released *My sister passed. I remembered last year when I went to the Ateneo to see the results... Haha. Pagbaba ko palang ng taxi nagsisisigaw na ko kasi sabi ni Tania nakapasa ko. ME. Haha. :) Those were the days....*

Hmm.. As I am motivationally indifferent (aka lazy), I will end my blog entry here. Hahaha. :) Ciao!!! :) *Never in my life have I been more sure... (LSS ko ang Balisong by Rivermaya. Haha.)*

Pagkatapos ng Bio exam. Haha. :)

Wala lang. Gusto ko lang tong i-post. :)

When will waiting for "the one"... be done? - Carrie

Haaay... I just watched the last episode of Sex and the City . Although I have only seen the last three seasons, I have fallen in love with the show. :) It saddens me to think that I have nothing to wait for during Tuesday nights. But I have to say that the ending was only fabulous. I'm glad that Charlotte and Harry finally got their baby. I'm glad that Miranda and Steve are doing great in Brooklyn (I think.) I'm glad that Mr. Big (Tama ba?) and Carrie realized that they're for each other. And I'm so glad that Samantha has Smith. Smith is so friggin' cute. :) Heehee. I was teary-eyed when Smith flew back to New York just to tell I love you to Samantha. Nyaha. Drama ko. :)

You have meant more to me than any man that I have ever known. - Samantha to Smith

I am looking for ridiculous, consuming, can't-live-without-you kind of love... And it's not here in this expensive suite in this lovely hotel... (Not to sure about this. :p) - Carrie to Aleksandr Petrovsky

Carrie, you're the one... It took me a long while to get here. - Big to Carrie

Heehee. I hope it doesn't take me 30-ish years to find the one. Right now, I'm in no hurry. Just taking it one day at a time. :) Anyhow, here are my island pics as well as some others. Hehehe. :)

Island girl. Hehehe. :)

With my beautiful titas. :p

Who's feeling beach-y? I am.

Wowee. :p

Smith Jerrod. Soooo hot. :) *courtesy of www.hbo.com*

And here's the clincher... :)

The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous. -Carrie Bradhsaw, Sex and the City

Gott nytt år! (This is in Swedish!) Happy new year! Manigong bagong taon! :) Hehehe. Wala lang. Hope everyone had a fun and loud new year because I know I had one. Haha. My neighbors had these friggin' long fireworks/Judas' belts and they were lighting/firing them up last night. Hay. Napakaingay. Napakausok. Haaaay... Sayang sa pera ang paputok. Anyhow, I only have one new year's resolution - I will stay away from french fries and fast food. Ha.. It would be sooooo difficult for me to do this. Pero kailangan... Kailangan para pumayat. :)

So... Hmm... I just feel so blessed and so thankful for everything that has happened last year. Heh. Drama. :) And I feel more thankful for 2005 because it brings new hope and new opportunities for change, renewal, and improvement. I only pray for peace, prosperity, and protection for all those whom I care especially in the light of the calamities that the world has experienced..

Just a quick update of last week's events:

Monday-Wednesday

I was in Puerto Galera with my Ninang Nene and Tita Bek. It was my first time there and I had a blast. :) Ang ganda pala dun. Hehehe. The beach/es were breathtaking... :) Will post pictures soon. And I experienced some of my firsts over there. I rode a ferry boat for the first time. I traveled without my family or my classmates for the first time. I took a dip in the beach even though I have period. Haha. Yucky fact :) I drank an alcoholic beverage for the first time. That's all the firsts I can remember. :) Wala lang. Ang saya. I want to return to the island/s. :p Really beautiful island/s. :) I still am feeling very beach-y.<p> Thursday

Rizal day. They showed/displayed this quote on TV.

Hindi kami takot sa tulo ng pawis; nais naming kami'y mas lalong maging handa sa tawag ng bayang iniibig.

Friday

New Year's Eve. :) Watched the Beauty and the Beast. Saw Christian on TV. Haha. Ang gwapo niya talaga. Ilang beses ko na ba to inulit? :)

So this is the end of my first post for 2005. :) Hope y'all have a great year! Smile! Enjoy! :) And ta hand om dej (which means take care of yourself in Swedish!) :p